Thursday, July 22, 2004


I'm thinking of removing anything really embarrassing from the blog and sharing the URL with people I know.

Tough decision, really.

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

Who knows ten? I know ten!

This is my 10th post. An anniversary, of sorts, except that there's no "ani" involved. So a "versary", I guess.

It's 11:38. Usually I'm starving by now, but today I'm not hungry at all. Should I wait until I'm hungry to eat? Can't decide.

I'm in an "I hate people" mood, sort of. I really only feel like I hate the people surrounding me. One of them is constantly saying his catch phrase to me. Ugh. One of them is a guy who looks furtively around all the time and never chats, ever. It's creepy, because I've been here a year, and everyone else chats with me, and he chats with other people. OK, so he doesn't like me. That kind of sucks, really. I wonder why? I understand when people I've had obvious clashes with don't like me, but this guy and I haven't ever really *talked*. Maybe I did something I didn't realize. Who knows. I don't hate the guy at the end of the aisle, but he's all the way at the end, there. Access is not simple, and I like it simple.

I'm working on a website for someone I know here at work. I'm almost done. It's nice to do non-work pages sometimes, because I can use modern techniques and non-standards-driven designs. I don't get a lot of creative design freedom at work.

You know, maybe today's the day I alter this default template I'm using. I *can*, I just never *have*. Possibly because it's a Zeldman template, and I've admired him and his work for years. I drove my ass to the Javitz Center on a weekday so that I could meet him at Internet World some time in the late 90's. He was just as cool as I expected him to be, although a lot shorter. How funny is that? At least he was totally as cool in person as he had been in email. He and I had an amusing conversation about yiddish phrases, and how my mother had mangled one so badly that I've been using it wrong for over 30 years.

You know what? This has gotten quite long. I shall end this post, here.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

I have...

I have sewing class tonight.
I have a mild sinus headache.
I have a low-carb bagel and some turkey bacon with string cheese for dinner.
I have Gerry's copy of "Seabiscuit".
I have the feeling that I'm obliged to post to my blog every once in a while.
I have a car that's clean on the outside.
I have the desire to get some of my work done.

(didn't see that one coming!)

Friday, July 16, 2004


Spent last night waiting for 2 people to show up at my house. One did. We played with my embroidery machine. I think that I'm really getting  the hang of this stuff, now.
Mostly, it's because I started a sewing class on Tuesday night.  There's a tension spring on top part of my machine that I had never seen, so consequently, I was only threading the machine correctly about 50% of the time, by accident. I'm *so* glad that this is fixed. Now, If I could just figure out how to get my crap off the table so I have decent room to hoop, and how to get the laptop *next* to the machine instead of *behind* it. That's a major PITA, having to walk around the table between steps and colors.
My brain is still swimming with a million things. I really, really have to get started on organizing the party I'm in charge of in August.  It's on August 19th, so OK, 34 days. That's a good amount of time to get things done in. I think I'll arrange for the decorations this weekend, though. And I'd better check on the Trojan Horse.
You know, theres just not that much that I want to share, today.  I'll end here.
What happened to the days when I could write any old thing, secure in the fact that no one that I wouldn't want to see it would ever be trolling the internet? They're gone.

Thursday, July 8, 2004

Wonder what happened to Wednesday.

Hmm. I posted yesterday, and I can't see it. Odd.

Today I know that I don't have to make any decisions on how to react, because what I would have reacted to isn't happening At least, not right now. Which is how I want it, so, good.

Hungry and dizzy today, which I suspect is a bad combination. I think I'll give in and just eat more. So much for will power.

Wednesday, July 7, 2004

Indecision sucks

Yeah, I still don't know how to handle my problem. Well, any of them, really. My eating problem, my laziness problem...

Geez, I am *no* prize. I'm not a punishment, though, so that's something.

I'll get some work done, so I'll feel useful, I'll stick to my eating plan, so I'll feel in righteous. Yeah, that ought to cover everything.

On a completely different note, I still really love my embroidery machine, and now I also love the red roses on my black satin nightgown. Too rock.

Tuesday, July 6, 2004

Tuesday check-in

Had a lovely long weekend, got to see a movie, hang out with friends, and attend a really cool party that had a lot going on. Geodesic domes, fire dancing, sing along corner, live band inside, where it was too loud to listen to them. The best ribs ever. A collection for the housemate who got injured setting up one of the giant tarps so that he could pay the doctor to stich up his head.

I also got my embroidery machine all fired up and running. I embroidered stuff. It actually looks really cool.

Friday, July 2, 2004


I just found out that someone I truly can't stand had a TERRIBLE day yesterday!

Shadenfreude rules, baby! Wooo!


I got new stockings! They're not the old ones! They almost look like regular stockings! I can wear a dress again!

Even with all the other stuff going on that makes me unsettled, this is such good news that the rest of my brain is brought up into the light with it.

Thursday, July 1, 2004

Day 2. So far so good

OK, deep philosophical questions aside, once again I'm just thinking about my diet. It literally rules my brain most days. I read recipies, and tips, and support bulletin boards, and I meticulously journal every little bit of food that goes into my mouth. Well, *almost* meticulously. I thought about recording my vitamins, and how many calories they have, and then I thought that the idea was really stupid. So I don't do that.

The reason I'm thinking so much about my diet *today* is that I've lost a stunning amount of weight this week. From Friday to today, my number's down 8.5 pounds. I can't say why, and I wonder if that means that something's wrong. So, I'm thinking about my diet.

I wonder if the stomach ache that I'm getting is an actual health problem, or just from worrying about health problems. I'm so danged neurotic.