Take Notes

These people are on the board of The Heritage Foundation.

Please start digging up any dirt you can. 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Heritage_Foundation#Notable_board_of_trustees_members

Notable board of trustees members

As of June 2024, eighteen individuals serve as members of the organization's Board of Trustee. Notable members include:

• Larry P. Arnn (since 2002), president, Hillsdale College^[228]
• Edwin Feulner (since 1973), co-founder and former president, the Heritage Foundation^[228]
• Robert P. George, professor, Princeton University
• Rebekah Mercer (since 2014), director, Mercer Family Foundation^[228]
• Anthony Saliba (since 2012), trader, entrepreneur, and author^[228]
• Brian Tracy (since 2003), motivational public speaker and self-development author^[228]

Notable former board members include:

• Edwin Meese, former U.S. attorney general^[228]
• Marion G. Wells, philanthropist and president, Marion G. Wells Foundation^[229]
• Preston A. Wells Jr., businessman and philanthropist^[228]

Tonight’s Shouting

 Tonight, the abyss gets to hear me shouting about the sanctity of human life. 

I believe that Israel should remain the Jewish state, minus Gaza. Gaza can be excluded. I am, at heart, a Zionist, but I can live with a two-state solution pretty easily.

I believe that the average civilian that calls themself a Palestinian deserves to live. 

Now, I remember the attack, I remember Hamas up and starting a war with Israel, worse than the usual every day ineffective bombing. I remember the hostages, so many of whom were killed, and the women whose bodies were defiled sexually, their lifeless limbs paraded through the streets as part of a horrific parade. 

I have watched as the world forgot who started this mess, as they became more and more shocked by the intensity of Israel’s retaliation.

I am also horrified by the intensity of the retaliation. The ongoing death and destruction are beyond the pale. 

It is so obvious that Israel has choked the last breaths out of all those poor people. Life is supposed to be precious. So why, in the interest of stopping all the pain and suffering, why does Hamas not surrender? Do wars no longer have winners and losers? Is war just forever, now, like in some apocalyptic sci-fi novel? Will we continue the wars with no end until no one remembers why they were fighting?

Stupid Is As Stupid Does

According to Pam Bondi, the US has seized 22 million fentanyl-laced pills at the border, saving 119 million lives. If that were true, it would mean that one pill can kill 18.5 people.

I’m guessing that she does not understand math. At all.

Well, Things are Not Going to Plan

 Went away for a few days with new girlfriend. As far as I can tell, has only been back to their hotel since Thursday. 

Last week they asked me to put notifications on their movements for when he went to or came out of the hotel. They were very drunk at the time. Today I see that they have deleted them. 

I think that I might get dumped. 

I hope to god that I'm being over dramatic. 

Insert swear-word here. I really love that person. 

Not Average, But Hurts, Anyway

 I always knew that I would never by polyamorous. I knew that at a very early point, I’d wonder, if you love me, how can that not be enough. Real love isn’t always found, so many people die lonely. But I know that I love him, for real, and I kind of understand why I’m not “enough”, but it hurts. Why does he have to form love bonds with people when he doesn’t love them back?

Thats what I was braced for. Because he fell in love with me while he was in love with someone else, that’s what I’m expecting to happen. And I do fully believe that he loves me. He spent too much time trying to make me happy to not love me. 

He’s seeing someone else, now. I want him to leave her town and never go back, because of his own plans. I don’t want him to do it “for me”. I want what I want with no guilt. I want to speak her name into the universe, but I’m afraid how that will work. 

F-word, Other Swear Word, Third Swear Word for Emphasis

My boyfriend and I are in an open relationship. This is because he feels strongly about his need for polyamory, and despite my strong desire for monogamy. 

I can have him as he is, or not at all. I cannot have him miserable, even if he was willing to do that. I'm 99% sure that he'd lose me before committing to monogamy. 

I think that this might mean that I love him more than he loves me, but I'm going to put that out of my mind, immediately. 

Last night he kissed someone else, and is going on a date with her, tonight. My visceral desires are to break his nose with my fist for even wanting to kiss someone else, and to shave off all the hair on her head, including her eyebrows. 

I left him a video message saying that I hope the show that they're going to see is fantastic, and that they realize that they're not compatible at all and are awkwardly uncomfortable in each other's company. I told him that I was pretty sure that wasn't going to be the case, so hey, at least he's going to have a nice night. 

I am the worst kind of person for hoping that he feels horrible about doing the thing that he is expressly permitted to do. There is no danger of losing me over this. 

But it hurts. And I want him to love me enough that preventing my hurt is more important to him than kissing other people. 

That is probably not going to happen. And I was a real jerk for leaving him that message. 

Wake Me Up

 When September Ends. 

I recently posted about the fact that I find 80 or so percent of my life painful or unfulfilling. My inability to get out of bed for any reason continues to make me wonder why I'm still alive. 

Even the very good things are floating in a sea of sadness. 

 I wish I was a little bit worse of a person. Then at least I could get some of what I want through guilt.